rest time

Rode Tom in the school today and although he still feels weak he does feel stronger than he did a few weeks ago. Did some basci schooling today in walk and trot really working on his balance and straightness and getting hind legs to push underneath him rather than out behind thus not being so on the forehand. Was really pleased with him by the end today. He came out a little on forehand with a tendency to rush but ended with him in a rythmn and balance and not somuch on his forehand. A pleasing ride.

On the otherhand had a chat with my vet about smurph today and we have decided that we are going to turn him away for 6months to a year. Am a little upset aboutt his but still it is his best chance. We had 2 options either i got on and rode him in walk and seen what happened or i turn him out for a long period of time to give him time to heal naturally. We opted for the second as we really have tried everything else. it has been nearly 6weeks since the cortisone injections so would be about now that they would begin to wear off which it would appear they are as he is coming out sometimes sound, sometimes stiff and sometimes lame. However it is not day to day but rather hour to hour but has no relevance to what he has done previous. So we will turn him out asap as soon as i can find somewhere and look at him in 3months and then see where we go from there so keeping everything crossed. Poor smurph going to be a bit of a culture shock am going to have to rug him very well as he is not an outdoor horse but hopefully it will do him some good mentally as well as physically. I have a place where I would like to keep him at a friend of mine which is just down the road but that really depends on whether she has space. The vet calls smurph a bit of a medical mystery ha ha trust me to have the 'special' horse. We shall see hopefully the parlmar carpal ligaments will finish mending by them selves. if anyone has any info about them it would be most gratefully recieved.

Spent today working in the pub boring as not very busy but now have some work for tomorrow which is usually my day off but did ask for any extra hours so can't complain as need the money -always the same in the equine industry.

Am also on the look out for a loan horse now so if anyone hears of any that would be great.

Time for a bit of pondering.....

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come on?!!!

Been a while haven't been quite myself getting back to normal now I think or at least I hope so!!!

The decision I made turned out to be the wrong one but it is now time to put that all behind me and crack on. Smurph is a very lucky pony as should have been put down but we have decided to try subcutaneous cortisone which he had injected about 3 weeks ago. He comes out a little stiff at times dependent on how silly he has been walking in hand but mainly we seem to be getting there and if all goes according to plan I should get on him on tues-can't wait.

Tom is now back in work and doing really well hacking loads and a little in the school. A saddler is coming to fit a jumping saddle to him on wed as we can use my dressage saddle on the flat which seems to fit both smurph and him=phew!!! wxpensive business this is.

Work for me is increasing each and everyday which is super and is keeping me nice and busy and out of trouble but am having to make myself have one day off a week as other wise end up working 7 days a weeks with it being very lucky if it is only a 12 hr day. Still can't complain!!!

Right time to crack on had enough of this floating around business-watch this space!!!!! Time to turn life on it's head in a good way-come on!

new year ,new start

Hope new year was a good one. Have to say mine was well as much as i can remember didn't feel that great new years day. Was meant to go and see a possible new youngster a nice looking, well bred unbroken 3yr old gelding however my chest infection had got worse and was now coughing up blood so pretty much spent the day in bed. Obviously you cannot kill a chest infection with makers mark and sambuca!!!!! Do also have a few other horses that I am hopefully going to go see in the next few weeks if I get time. really pleased I have a really busy few weeks ahead which is a niceway to start the new year business wise.

So a few thoughts for new year:

• time to give smoking I think really worth a big effort
• try to get together a few more rides
• seriously look for a yard of my own
• realise that life is what you make it so make it a good one
• try to be a more supportive person to those I care so deeply about
• concentrate on getting my health better
• I think it's time that I really sorted out my life rather than just drifting make some proper descisions and stick to them, time to grow up
• time to put some deamons to rest
• What you are as a single person, you will be as a married person, only to a greater degree.
• I am like a falling star who has finally found her place next to another in a lovely constellation, where we will sparkle in the heavens forever.
• Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow.

I have made a very big descison about future plans ones that I am alittle scared about, one that makes me super excited, one that scares me and one that I am not 100% sure about, one that I am not sure is completely for all the right reasons but one that could possibly make me the happiest I will ever and have ever been, one that I need to hurry up and get rid of the deamons about or I stand to loose one of the most important people in my life whom I care so very much about and would move to the end of the earth for and back if asked. Sure it will all be fine and nerves are just part of it and completely natural lets hope I don't push them away.

mike this is to you: I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

Smurph is looking good so very nearly sound so hopefully that'll be the end of it will probably get on him on tuesday which is always fun and exciting something that i very much look forward to.