So I am back from the most fanastic time in poland just wish we could have gone for a little longer. The weather was fab apart from cross country day where there was a little rain and wind so proper XC weather. Will have pics up soon as soon as I get a chance to look through them and sort them all out.
It really was a privilege to be able to accompany my very special friend to her family and friends where I was made to feel very welcome and part of the family.
got a few things on my little old mind will finish writing tomorrow
xxx
Wednesday, 26 August 2009
Tuesday, 18 August 2009
poland here i come
So it's been a while simply because I've been hugely busy.
Murphy is still on box rest but hopefully will be sound when the vet looks at him next thursday really would be super then we can start his recupperation. We shall see. He's lost all his muscle but seems to be coping well with all this box rest but we do have a no kids to handle rule as he is known to throw a leg out at the moment randomly-poor boy. His knee seems to have less heat in it now but I am slightly concerned about the fact that a bit of swelling keeps appearing than disappearing and so on and so on.
Am still loving riding Jack and he really seems to be coming on nicely. he's developing a lot more correct muscle and is really beginning to come through his back now and consiquently is jumping better too not so many poles being dropped. He is pretty much the same to jump as Murphy so is keeping my eye in nicely ready for that super day when I can jump my boy again.
Dash is getting bigger and bigger and really is turning into a super little dog and seems to be loving going to the shows with the scurry ponies. We now have 2 pairs qualified for the national championships and thaat grey is doing super well. there's always another chapter to the story where that little pony is concerned a bit like a cat with 9 lives bless him. Hopefully Bill will qualify them for Newbury at the show on Wednesday.
Am off to Poland tomorrow with a friend of mine to watch the World cup eventing finals which should be fantastic and am really looking forward to it. It has come at a time when I could really use a break from work and just chill for a bit so this week has super timing. Will be really nice to have some time to watch professionals who are at the top of their game gain some tips etc. so really ought to start packing!!! My friend is on her way to me now so we will set off early tomorrow to get the train then fly-the two things that actually I'm both scared of so time to conquer those fears. Strange fears really if you consider I will get on a unbacked horse but am scared on flyng a trains!!!! Well we shall see.
Right will write when I get back can't wait will take loads of pictures and will try to post some up here.
Dash is off to stay with his mum and brother at my friends house and will also be off to the shows without me. Will miss him loads but I'm sure he'll have a great time. Am also going to miss Murphy loads and have left the girls a huge long list about him-poor people. I'm sure they are more tahn capable but it just makes me feel a little better. So good luck to Bill and the ponies at the few shows that they are off to without me hopefully I will come back to more ponies that have qualified.
Will miss mike but I'm sure he'll cope and has a few boys nights out planned. xxx
right packing i suppose not my favourite thing.
write soon
x
Murphy is still on box rest but hopefully will be sound when the vet looks at him next thursday really would be super then we can start his recupperation. We shall see. He's lost all his muscle but seems to be coping well with all this box rest but we do have a no kids to handle rule as he is known to throw a leg out at the moment randomly-poor boy. His knee seems to have less heat in it now but I am slightly concerned about the fact that a bit of swelling keeps appearing than disappearing and so on and so on.
Am still loving riding Jack and he really seems to be coming on nicely. he's developing a lot more correct muscle and is really beginning to come through his back now and consiquently is jumping better too not so many poles being dropped. He is pretty much the same to jump as Murphy so is keeping my eye in nicely ready for that super day when I can jump my boy again.
Dash is getting bigger and bigger and really is turning into a super little dog and seems to be loving going to the shows with the scurry ponies. We now have 2 pairs qualified for the national championships and thaat grey is doing super well. there's always another chapter to the story where that little pony is concerned a bit like a cat with 9 lives bless him. Hopefully Bill will qualify them for Newbury at the show on Wednesday.
Am off to Poland tomorrow with a friend of mine to watch the World cup eventing finals which should be fantastic and am really looking forward to it. It has come at a time when I could really use a break from work and just chill for a bit so this week has super timing. Will be really nice to have some time to watch professionals who are at the top of their game gain some tips etc. so really ought to start packing!!! My friend is on her way to me now so we will set off early tomorrow to get the train then fly-the two things that actually I'm both scared of so time to conquer those fears. Strange fears really if you consider I will get on a unbacked horse but am scared on flyng a trains!!!! Well we shall see.
Right will write when I get back can't wait will take loads of pictures and will try to post some up here.
Dash is off to stay with his mum and brother at my friends house and will also be off to the shows without me. Will miss him loads but I'm sure he'll have a great time. Am also going to miss Murphy loads and have left the girls a huge long list about him-poor people. I'm sure they are more tahn capable but it just makes me feel a little better. So good luck to Bill and the ponies at the few shows that they are off to without me hopefully I will come back to more ponies that have qualified.
Will miss mike but I'm sure he'll cope and has a few boys nights out planned. xxx
right packing i suppose not my favourite thing.
write soon
x
Monday, 27 July 2009
I believe.....
With a renewed upbeat look on things I am feeling very positive and now I can really concentrate on things and what exxactly it is I really want to do.
I belive:
I belive:
- that if you want something enough you will do everything in your power to achieve it or to make it happen
- friends and family make the world go round and make this journey called life interesting and so very worthwhile
- everything happens for a reason even if the reason if not always clear
- the glass is always half full if not over flowing
- love is the most unbelievable thing but yet cannot really be defined
- there are so many things to be learned but yet not enough time to learn them all
- sometimes the best things happen when you least expect them
- you are blessed if you meet a few very special people that love and care for you
- ambitions are things that push you to achieve
- each day should be lived as if it were your last
- things are what you make them so make them the best
- special friends that really do care and those that you can just sit with and not say a word yet feel good about things are few and far between so look after them
- that true friends are those you can make that 4 am phone call to and know they will answer
- you should treat others as you would want to be treated
- life is too short why waste it
- we don't spend enough time just sitting in the grass watching the clouds go by
So heres a thank you to those that make everyday a special whether we speak or not knowing you're there is a blessing indeed and hope I do the same for you.
A few quotes from my favourite bear!:
“If there ever comes a day when we can't be together keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever”
Winnie the Pooh
“I used to believe in forever, but forever is too good to be true.”
Winnie the Pooh
“Don't underestimate the value of Doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can't hear, and not bothering.”
Winnie the Pooh
Saturday, 25 July 2009
I believe
this is my song for the night!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=as-BDIB_9cE
will write more tomorrow. Think this song kind of says it all for tonight. Glad I've stuck with things. Sometimes people think that you should do something different all I can say is I am so glad I chose this path now all I have to do is believe!!!!!! I was once told if you want something enough you will make it happen well I really want to be a great rider if at all possible. Somedays you just feel like flying!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=as-BDIB_9cE
will write more tomorrow. Think this song kind of says it all for tonight. Glad I've stuck with things. Sometimes people think that you should do something different all I can say is I am so glad I chose this path now all I have to do is believe!!!!!! I was once told if you want something enough you will make it happen well I really want to be a great rider if at all possible. Somedays you just feel like flying!!!!!
Thursday, 23 July 2009
Smile again
So had a wierd few days! Took Murphy down to Liphook on monday and ended up spending much longer there then I thought I would. We did a few nerve blocks that seemed to be pretty conclusive to there being something behind the knew but did x-rays to confirm and to find out what was the cause of the pain and inflammation. the x-rays showed the one thing that David Loyd didn't want the bit of cartilage on the back of the left knee had turned to bone and appeared to be cutting into the tendons and ligaments which really wasn't good news. Depending upon the severity of the damage to the tendons and ligaments would depend on the outcome and the chance of recovery be it full or part or if at all.
I left Liphook on monday completely distraught with the possibiltity that I may not bring my pony home or at best he would need an operation on thursday to try to remove the bone to give him the best chance possible of a full recovery. I decided to leave him there as mor test etc were neccessary on wednesday to decide exactly what the prognosis was and if the operation was worth doing and whether he would be able to fulfill his potential, jump again, just do dressage or nothing at all. So Tuesday I really was on edge.
However my first great piece of news came on tuesday when I got my final results which said that everything was alright with me and the joy was unbelievable. I didn't know whether to laugh, cry , scream shout what so I settled for putting all my effort into the lesson that I had to teach. Obvioulsy at the forefront of my mind was the thoughts of murphy and what the outcome would be on wednesday. Not sure after monday I had anymore tears to cry any more shouting to do or any more emotions left in me!!!!!! But I was ok so that was one thing. My boss said to me maybe it was my week and things were going to go upwards from here.
I have to say the verts and all the staff at liphook were superb. They took the best care of Murphy possible and were excellent towards me answering any questions I had in depth and always enquiring about him and what I was doing with him and what david had said and honestly seemed very interested in both me and my horse. People really did seem to like him and David thought he was a super horse with and excellent attitude to life. Davis took so much time explaining to me exactly what the x-rays , scans etc were saying and how it all effected murphy.
So wednesday we did one more nerve block which interestingly enough only made him 50% sound so we scanned. This is where our fortunes changed. It showed that the bit of bone on the back of his knee was a red herring and was indeed not effecting the tendons etc in any way. What it did show however is that he has damaged all the tendons and ligaments, carpal ligaments at the back of his knee quite badly!!!! BUT and what a great BUT it is he has a 99% chance of making a full recovery and returning to do everything he could ever do so the ong road to recovery will be worth every second and every little difficulty that I'm sure we will encounter along the way. It will be a long hard 9 months of recovery but it will be worth it and fingers crossed next season will be ours! It does however mean he misses the second round of the national amateurs but it is a very small price to pay for a sound horse that will return to a good and hopefully even better than he was before. Now for the moment we have 6-8weeks box rest followed by 8 weeks of turn out under sedation in a very small paddock for a few hours a day then very very slowly and gently he can start walking in hand and then so on. Malcom my vet will be there all along the way keeping a very close eye on him making sure that we are doing our best in all respects to give the very best chance.
He is having to go onto potassium bromide to keep him calm to help to reduce the risk of further injury in the stable as he isn't the most predictable at the moment plus we have children on the yard and although he is staff only to handle sometimes they go in or they give him something and I just cant risk it. Plus to be honest if it keeps him calmer its a lot better for his chance of recovery and I'm all for that anything is so worth a go. He is also having a course of Adequan injections and is going onto a double dose of arthri-aid which is a joint supplement byt nutri science that I think is fantastic. He also has lots of boredome breakers in his stable balls, non-sugary licks, salt licks etc anything that I can think of that will keep him occupied as he is so so bored as already he has been on nearly 7 weeks box rest. Now thats a lot for any horse let alone one that was so fit and ready to event before this all happened. To think this all happened in the field! It is thought that he was galloping around being an idiot like he is and came to a sudden stop and bent his knee back and basically the ligaments, tendons etc have done their job and become damaged to protect any damage to the knee joint itself.
Over all I'm very happy and pleased after the way this week started. I'm all fine and 100% and the horse is going to be fine so roll on. So nice to finally be able to breathe a sigh of relief and smile a true smile not one of those you put on for a brave face but a true 100% meant smile!!!! So thank you to all my friends that have been there and supported however, Mike and of course the vets and in particular David Loyd so thank you all everso.
Big smiles all round and a few drink to celebrate I think. Oh and on top of that some super riding I've had this week including jumping jack over some proper height! Excellent later week than what it appeared it was going to be at the beginning. Role on next season!!!!!!
x
I left Liphook on monday completely distraught with the possibiltity that I may not bring my pony home or at best he would need an operation on thursday to try to remove the bone to give him the best chance possible of a full recovery. I decided to leave him there as mor test etc were neccessary on wednesday to decide exactly what the prognosis was and if the operation was worth doing and whether he would be able to fulfill his potential, jump again, just do dressage or nothing at all. So Tuesday I really was on edge.
However my first great piece of news came on tuesday when I got my final results which said that everything was alright with me and the joy was unbelievable. I didn't know whether to laugh, cry , scream shout what so I settled for putting all my effort into the lesson that I had to teach. Obvioulsy at the forefront of my mind was the thoughts of murphy and what the outcome would be on wednesday. Not sure after monday I had anymore tears to cry any more shouting to do or any more emotions left in me!!!!!! But I was ok so that was one thing. My boss said to me maybe it was my week and things were going to go upwards from here.
I have to say the verts and all the staff at liphook were superb. They took the best care of Murphy possible and were excellent towards me answering any questions I had in depth and always enquiring about him and what I was doing with him and what david had said and honestly seemed very interested in both me and my horse. People really did seem to like him and David thought he was a super horse with and excellent attitude to life. Davis took so much time explaining to me exactly what the x-rays , scans etc were saying and how it all effected murphy.
So wednesday we did one more nerve block which interestingly enough only made him 50% sound so we scanned. This is where our fortunes changed. It showed that the bit of bone on the back of his knee was a red herring and was indeed not effecting the tendons etc in any way. What it did show however is that he has damaged all the tendons and ligaments, carpal ligaments at the back of his knee quite badly!!!! BUT and what a great BUT it is he has a 99% chance of making a full recovery and returning to do everything he could ever do so the ong road to recovery will be worth every second and every little difficulty that I'm sure we will encounter along the way. It will be a long hard 9 months of recovery but it will be worth it and fingers crossed next season will be ours! It does however mean he misses the second round of the national amateurs but it is a very small price to pay for a sound horse that will return to a good and hopefully even better than he was before. Now for the moment we have 6-8weeks box rest followed by 8 weeks of turn out under sedation in a very small paddock for a few hours a day then very very slowly and gently he can start walking in hand and then so on. Malcom my vet will be there all along the way keeping a very close eye on him making sure that we are doing our best in all respects to give the very best chance.
He is having to go onto potassium bromide to keep him calm to help to reduce the risk of further injury in the stable as he isn't the most predictable at the moment plus we have children on the yard and although he is staff only to handle sometimes they go in or they give him something and I just cant risk it. Plus to be honest if it keeps him calmer its a lot better for his chance of recovery and I'm all for that anything is so worth a go. He is also having a course of Adequan injections and is going onto a double dose of arthri-aid which is a joint supplement byt nutri science that I think is fantastic. He also has lots of boredome breakers in his stable balls, non-sugary licks, salt licks etc anything that I can think of that will keep him occupied as he is so so bored as already he has been on nearly 7 weeks box rest. Now thats a lot for any horse let alone one that was so fit and ready to event before this all happened. To think this all happened in the field! It is thought that he was galloping around being an idiot like he is and came to a sudden stop and bent his knee back and basically the ligaments, tendons etc have done their job and become damaged to protect any damage to the knee joint itself.
Over all I'm very happy and pleased after the way this week started. I'm all fine and 100% and the horse is going to be fine so roll on. So nice to finally be able to breathe a sigh of relief and smile a true smile not one of those you put on for a brave face but a true 100% meant smile!!!! So thank you to all my friends that have been there and supported however, Mike and of course the vets and in particular David Loyd so thank you all everso.
Big smiles all round and a few drink to celebrate I think. Oh and on top of that some super riding I've had this week including jumping jack over some proper height! Excellent later week than what it appeared it was going to be at the beginning. Role on next season!!!!!!
x
Saturday, 18 July 2009
Wisdom from winnie the pooh!!!!!
So now I have managed to get my scrambled stressed brain into some sort of order and am making some kind of sense I shall try to make some sense on here.
Very busy day at the yard today which helps as keeps me busy and therefore not giving my brain much time to go into overdrive about things. I was meant to be working at the pub tonight but to be honest I'm too tired and my brain just wouldn't cope so have swaped my shift with my friend who was doing tomorrow evening-maybe one more day will help?!
Georg C. Lichtenberg:
One's first step in wisdom is to question everything - and one's last is to come to terms with everything.
How very true indeed.
Rode jack again today (ex event horse) and he was super really is beginning to relax stretching down comfortably and today even mannaged to stretch so much he was on the buckle in canter so was so so pleased. He really is good for me at the moment as when I am on him I think of nothing else but him and how he feels how I can make it nicer for him etc. Looks like i shall be riding him a lot.
I think sometimes we just want that one last conversation, that one last thing to say one last time to say I love you but it's just not possible. However if I could have one last conversation with Ben I think I would say very simply 'I love you and thank you for everything. Every single day, every single moment, everything you ever said to me and every little bit of support and for being with me in the past the present and the future and how I wish things could be different. So thank you and I love you.'
I think he would reply with something like this quote from Winnie the pooh:
'If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together.. there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart.. I’ll always be with you'.-- Winnie the Pooh
I would however just like so say that yes I miss Ben terribly everyday and not a day goes by when I don't think of him and wish that yes it would have been nice in 50yrs to be sat on Brighton Pier with fish and chips but Mike is my rock and is there with me every step of the way. We both knew Ben for many years and is nice that we both understand how we each feel and deal with it together and comfort each other through the difficult times. Have to say I think I am very lucky. I have a super man who loves me and looks after me and some super friends who I could always make that 4am phone call to and know that they would pick up reguardless. So role on Tuesday and hopefully all will be ok as I hate feeling like this and really would like to feel like my normal self.. So by tuesday I will know about Murphy and I will know about me. Still sore today but little less then yesterday so good news.
Right going to eat something before I get severely told off then I think an early night.
x
Very busy day at the yard today which helps as keeps me busy and therefore not giving my brain much time to go into overdrive about things. I was meant to be working at the pub tonight but to be honest I'm too tired and my brain just wouldn't cope so have swaped my shift with my friend who was doing tomorrow evening-maybe one more day will help?!
Georg C. Lichtenberg:
One's first step in wisdom is to question everything - and one's last is to come to terms with everything.
How very true indeed.
Rode jack again today (ex event horse) and he was super really is beginning to relax stretching down comfortably and today even mannaged to stretch so much he was on the buckle in canter so was so so pleased. He really is good for me at the moment as when I am on him I think of nothing else but him and how he feels how I can make it nicer for him etc. Looks like i shall be riding him a lot.
I think sometimes we just want that one last conversation, that one last thing to say one last time to say I love you but it's just not possible. However if I could have one last conversation with Ben I think I would say very simply 'I love you and thank you for everything. Every single day, every single moment, everything you ever said to me and every little bit of support and for being with me in the past the present and the future and how I wish things could be different. So thank you and I love you.'
I think he would reply with something like this quote from Winnie the pooh:
'If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together.. there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart.. I’ll always be with you'.-- Winnie the Pooh
I would however just like so say that yes I miss Ben terribly everyday and not a day goes by when I don't think of him and wish that yes it would have been nice in 50yrs to be sat on Brighton Pier with fish and chips but Mike is my rock and is there with me every step of the way. We both knew Ben for many years and is nice that we both understand how we each feel and deal with it together and comfort each other through the difficult times. Have to say I think I am very lucky. I have a super man who loves me and looks after me and some super friends who I could always make that 4am phone call to and know that they would pick up reguardless. So role on Tuesday and hopefully all will be ok as I hate feeling like this and really would like to feel like my normal self.. So by tuesday I will know about Murphy and I will know about me. Still sore today but little less then yesterday so good news.
Right going to eat something before I get severely told off then I think an early night.
x
Friday, 17 July 2009
The way of the world
Well not quite the results I was hoping for but certainly could have been a lot worse. Tests have been done and now I have to hang on in there till Tuesday to find out those results. Due to some abnomalities today with some of the tests(for want of a better word) further tests had to be done which have to say weren't exactly the most pleasent or comfortable and no doubt I will be bit sore for a few days but we shall see so everyone fingers crossed for the results to be 100% perfect on tuesday. Mike has been a superstar and continues to be so. A mega thank you goes to him and some very supportive friends love to you all. People keep saying be positive, dont think too much which is all very good advice but is easier said than done. Think I need one of those magic wands.
Thsi afternoon I did go to work but to be honest might as well have not been there but hopefully my teaching didnt suffer. I'm getting very good at walking through those school doors and leaving everything outside-lots of practice you see!!! I hate this so much and feel like I am burdening people with my problems and I hate the idea of that but am so so grateful for the support I get.
Too much to think about tonight and am sure I'm not making any sense so am off for lots of much needed cuddle and hopefully some sleep if I'm lucky and if my body hasnt forgotten what that is. Struggling on is what I feel I am doing and really hate that feeling and hate the feeling of 'whats the point'. Still hopefully will be good news on monday about murphy and good news about me on tuesday after all at some point things must pick up thats the way of the world..... isn't it!?
x
Thsi afternoon I did go to work but to be honest might as well have not been there but hopefully my teaching didnt suffer. I'm getting very good at walking through those school doors and leaving everything outside-lots of practice you see!!! I hate this so much and feel like I am burdening people with my problems and I hate the idea of that but am so so grateful for the support I get.
Too much to think about tonight and am sure I'm not making any sense so am off for lots of much needed cuddle and hopefully some sleep if I'm lucky and if my body hasnt forgotten what that is. Struggling on is what I feel I am doing and really hate that feeling and hate the feeling of 'whats the point'. Still hopefully will be good news on monday about murphy and good news about me on tuesday after all at some point things must pick up thats the way of the world..... isn't it!?
x
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